a conclusion

i have come to a conclusion... well i probably came to this conclusion a long time ago. ask any ex boyfriend, ex friend, or take a look at any argument i have had with an angry mom or dad. I am not a good communicator. i'm sure you may think "this is strange, how can she have a blog?"...but maybe that is why it is slightly ironic. i communicate much better through words, as in typing them... not speaking them. my lack of talent in this area usually leads to arguments, disagreements, frustrations, upset, sleepless nights and sometimes tears...or breaking things (rare)...but communicating with the ones i love...absolutely not a strength of mine. (unless its those awesome one liners that everyone has once in a while when trying to make their mom or best friend feel better or in an effort to cheer up an old friend or loved one - inspirational tid bits if you will --in which case i normally just steal words of wisdom from my mom mom, so don't give me too much credit)


i usually have full and wonderful intentions of having an educated enlightening conversation... it is through these conversations that i look forward to growing my relationship with that individual... really having some great heart to hearts, or at least laughing about something silly that i decided to bring up and discuss.  and well, it usually takes a turn for the worst whether through a disagreement or a lack of ability to correctly phrase what i want to say. i need to be able to speak more eloquently, (similarly to my boyfriend..who by the way comes up with the most absurd analogies in the middle of an argument or in depth conversation...seriously people, these things are absolutely crazy.. even crazier, they normally make 100% sense) i'll try and take a lesson and get back to you on how it works almost every time (although it has been 2 years and i am no closer to understanding how he does it than i was the first night we met - cheers to that) anyway...i look for some sort of recommendation. what do i need to do better? i have taken the approach to laugh things off, or try/pretend to not have this bother me..that usually fails..so i am left either feeling beaten down, or totally disgruntled that i am unable to be on the same page with the individual i wanted to have a conversation with in the first place. i know this may seem crazy for some, those of you out there who have breezy conversations with everyone they meet, or hell even those marketers out there who are natural people persons. crazy thing about this, i am one of those marketers who considers them selves people friendly... loves talking to people and meeting and learning more as each day goes on.. sure some people may mistake me for being slightly sarcastic(bitchy) or intimidating (bitchy)...but i swear, i don't mean it! give a girl a chance will ya? 


in the meantime any words of advice on how to argue less, see the brighter side more often or take a sip of serendipity would be nice... because i swear, believe it or not, i mean well. 

i look up communication and i find this... serendipity?

i drive...

i drive a lot, like alot. well, i think so anyway. i am either traveling to Roanoke to see the boy, home to see the family, going out to the beach, going to sc to get my southern hospitality fix..or something of those sorts. now, with that in mind... i have come to a conclusion. a. people in va are fanatical about their license plates (semi annoying) b. license plates signify some weird sense of belonging. its a physical item that ties you to your home state... or whatever state that you may now call home. as i drive i am constantly looking out for PA plates...somehow thinking that when i drive by a fellow PA'er...they are going to wave and share some sort of comfort in knowing that we are from the same state...(that never happens) but, i will say...i have not had a PA plate for a few weeks now with the purchase of my new car, and, well...i feel lost. i am no longer representing pa, or...should i say, being represented by pa. this is a weird thing for me.. mostly because a long lost friend of mine and i used to be crazzzyyy when a same state plate would pass us by...it was comforting, fun, and always interesting to check and see if you maybe by a slim chance knew the passer by on 95. (again, this never happens) anyway... now that i have this lame Maryland temp tag... i am always looking to feel connected to that pa plate.. one that will make me feel at home.. surrounded by fellow pa'ers, vs the ever so popular vanity Va plate...(really people, REALLY?!) regardless.... i miss feeling tied to my home.. but a wise woman recently said something that really stuck with me "home is where you make it, it comes from within" i'll tell ya...she is good! it is very true.. home is where you make it, and for some one who doesn't have a clue where they will end up, and only knows where they want to end up.. it is nice to know that home is where you make it..so whatever plate i end up with, i just hope that a passer by from PA recognizes "hey, i know her"...because really, to me, there is nothing more calming that feeling close to that place you will always call home.. even when you're miles away. 

perfect right?

gotta love it...

i guess this one is okay... ;)

to him

to the best dad around.. i love you, happy fathers day. 

when you know

when you know, you know. crossing the sc state line today was something special, something i miss. i consider it home... sure pa is "home" but, columbia...is where i want my home to be. i love it, i love the people, i love the look, i love the memories and i love what could come. sure, i am here for work...but i'll tell ya.. seeing the street names, and remembering the good times is almost too good to be true.. i miss it so much it hurts, and god am i thankful to be back. i look forward when i will know where i can settle, where i can enjoy and just stop and breathe, maybe take a walk around and enjoy the view instead of wondering what is next. where is the next move? no one knows, although i will say..the next few days...  for work or for not, i'm gonna enjoy it...i am gonna enjoy every second of my future home.. because that is just something i know, and i can't wait. 

the little things

in life, it's all about the little things. this could be the way that your favorite food tastes when you're cooking out with family and friends, or the way the snow looks when it falls while you look into a street light (if you haven't tried this...i suggest you do, its amazing) it could be the way the air smells after the grass has been cut, or the way a golf course looks at sunrise...these are the little things. little things are what make life special...the things that you remember when your homesick your sophomore year in college or when you want to come home in the middle of a sleep over at the ripe age of oh, lets just say 10...these are the things you think about that can either make your day into one of the best...or make your night into one that can be very hard to get through.  


when growing up, moving away and living on your own, i feel like you have more to say about these "little things".  now, as i start/continue my career and live on my own... i have plenty of little things to think about... for example, laundry is a different type of little thing, the crappy kind if you will, and for me..its a little thing that makes me want to scream...because laundry here for 3.00 in quarters is an absolute pain in the ass..but, its just a little thing right? [sigh] so, when shit like that annoys me, i try and think of the special or important things that would put a smile on anyone's face (ya know, the good kind of little things)... for example, the gamecocks winning in the first game of series in super regionals *go cocks!* or that i was able spend a nice day at the pool with a friend, as well as had some good sara time at the beach... these are the little things that tell me that the laundry issues i may have, are really not all that important...so brush it off, and take it in, take in the little things that make today special, and tomorrow a surprise, for you could come across another one of those little things that you will end up remembering years down the road, and c'mon... that's pretty cool right?


Some more of my little things:(the good kind, not the laundry kind)
1. Hearing amazing grace being sung live
2. Sitting on the porch at night at The Sanctuary in Kiawah Island
3. 2001 intro being played at Williams Brice Stadium
4. Fall in Bucks County Pa
5. Fall anywhere...
6. The smell of the ocean
7. Sitting on a lifegaurd stand at the Jersey Shore during sunset
8. A kiss on the forehead
9. A good hug from your parents
10. Driving across the SC state line

dare i give a work shout out...

Based on concert and event grosses from Oct. 16, 2010-May 15, 2011, as reported to Venues Today.

Venue/Location/No. of Seats/Total Gross/Total Attendance/No. of show

5,001-10,000 CAPACITY:

1. Radio City Music Hall, New York

2. The Theater at Madison Square Garden, New York

3. Nokia Theatre L.A. Live

4. Mohegan Sun Arena, Uncasville, Conn.

5. Newcastle (Australia) Entertainment Centre

6. Hordern Pavilion, Sydney

7. Agganis Arena, Boston

8. CBS Canterbury Arena, Christchurch, New Zealand

9. Huntington Center, Toledo, Ohio

10. UIC Pavilion, Chicago

11. Orleans Arena, Las Vegas

12. Neal S. Blaisdell Center, Honolulu

13. The Liacouras Center, Philadelphia

14. K-Rock Centre, Kingston, Ontario

15. ShoWare Center, Kent, Wash.

16. Constant Convocation Center, Norfolk, Va.

17. State Farm Arena, Hidalgo, Texas

18. General Motors Centre, Oshawa, Ontario

19. Comcast Arena at Everett (Wash.)

20. Tsongas Center, Lowell, Mass.

spontaneity

It has been a pretty long week, and some may beg to differ but i personally think that it has been a v e r y long week. i struggle with this because it is always  nice to have a little something to look forward too after these "long" weeks and although there are some options...sometimes i just am not a very good decision maker.  i did however make a decision today, a pretty random one at that.... lets go for 3.1 miles today at the gym. sure, some my scoff bc that is child's play... but i am not included in that "some"... a 5k for me (because a 5k just sounds better) is a nice little pat on the back, a feel good accomplishment if you will... so, that was fun [insert pat on the  back here]...now for the weekend...

this is good...very good.

"go after her. hell, dont sit there and wait for her to call, go after her because thats what you should do if you love someone, dont wait for them to give you a sign cause it might never come, dont let people happen to you, dont let me happen to you, or her, shes not a television show or tornado. there are people i might have loved had they gotten on the airplane or run down the street after me or called me up drunk at 4 in the morning because they need to tell me right now and because they cannot regret this and i always thought id be the only one doing crazy things for people who would never give a shit to do it back or to act like idiots or be entirely vulnerable and honest and making someone fall in love with you is easy and flying 3000 miles on 4 days notice because you cant just sit there and do nothing and breathe into telephones is not everyones idea of love but it is the way i can recognize it because that is what i do. go scream it and be with her in meaningful ways because that is beautiful and that is generous and that is what loving someone is, that is raw and that is unguarded, and that is all that is worth anything, really."

can you tell i'm a quote kinda girl yet or what?

ps. if this doesn't scream serendipity, i don't know what does.

i love every second of this

is it the weekend yet?

i think i have an addiction. maybe i get it from my mother? or maybe its just a little thing i like to call boredom. i live on a beer budget, and this is not a joke...but when i want to shop, i want to shop. i will talk myself out of buying a coffee twice a week to save some money during the week (which adds up to what, $4...like really Sara?), but instead i can't talk myself out of spending $90 at NY&Co. Good thing about this, i am a phenomenal bargain shopper. bad thing about this, i am $90 less to feeling comfortable about paying all the bills this month. priorities Sara, priorities...oh well. Moving on:Weekend plans: Sleep, Gym...not, Beach and.. that's all i got. so, any suggestions people? perhaps a little picture taking at while laying out, that could always be fun... in hopes not to burn my skin off like a few weekends back. fail.

sorry, i had too.

 

“So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s gonna be really hard. We’re gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What’s it look like? If it’s with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that’s what you really wanted. But don’t you take the easy way out.”

—Noah

This movie as "chick flicky" as it may be...damn, it's a great one. It's full of things that men just don't appreciate in real life, full of things that you would never hear them say. And please, correct me if i am wrong (chivalry may not be dead.....) but i'll tell ya, and no this is not a dig at my loving boy, not at all...but sometimes this movie, the quotes from this movie, e v e r y thing about this movie...way to good to be true. maybe that’s why i like it? maybe that’s why it is so good...it creates a story of something unattainable by the normal gal...sure some women get themselves into a situation where they need to chose between the one they love, and the one they have always loved...but well, that’s life.. and call it serendipitous that he actually stuck around.. or that the letters were never read all those years, but i'll tell ya... this one goes down in the books. this one will always be a classic among hearts who crave what just may be unattainable.

wannabe artsy...who me?

This. is. an. awesome. collection.... click here, you know you wanna.

on the other hand...

I have a fun job, I do...but I'll tell ya, when it is slow...it's slow. During the season we are swamped with family shows, concerts, sporting events..god only knows what...but these summer months are a little rough. I sometimes think how much better it would be if the apartment was a little nicer, the drive wasn't as far, the music wasn't always the same, the budget wasn't as tight, and the boy and family were'nt so far away. But they are...so I make do, and trust me...it can be rough. See, I would love nothing more to come home after the gym today.. make a nice dinner outside on the grill, play with the puppy and then pop in a movie or maybe go for a trip to run some errands. All of these things are much less fun with out a partner in crime and I absolutely can't wait to see what the road ahead has in store. Sure, you don't want to rush the present, because yes...it's a gift (that's why they call it the present - get it) but, this is my young twenties!!! ...and well, I sure as hell am working them away. (yes, I know Dad...it will be worth it)

So, bring on the solo beach trips, the book reading nights, and the low key gym time in the mean time...  Moral of this little post, I can't wait until 5 pm during the week...is a little more sweeter, but on the other hand.. weekends like the one below will hold me over until then :)



A little "family" time is good for the soul.



me in a nutshell, no no..a blog.

So here I am...Norfolk VA, originally from beautiful Bucks County PA. University of South Carolina Grad and a Carolina Kappa. I am the proud daughter of the two best parents I know, a loving sister of the nicest kid in town and the happy girlfriend of a U2 crazed romantic. Life has moved pretty fast... from small town, to southern city and now living and working on my own - pretty crazy right? Through all of the craziness I wonder if I should have some kind of theme, some kind of way to put this whole blog thing together...but then again, the more I think about it... life is not nearly as put together as I may have liked, so a little organized chaos will be good. After all, life is full of accidents or fortunate mistakes - believe it or not, everyone makes a few here and there. Thankfully mine have been great ones... hence a little serendipity goes a long way.


In order to get this thing going, here are 10 things I love:
1.list making
2. family
3. friends
4. south carolina
5. photography 
6. hootie and the blowfish
7. country music
8. dad's bbq
9. lyrics
10. driving with the windows down...in the rain

It's about time..

What is it about a blog? Why do people have such a thing?
"Me, have a blog?....Never!"

Well, that lasted about 6 months... so here we are, at a crossroads. Just me and the "blog". 
So much thought and effort needs to go into such a thing, but yet it is the stream of consciousness that makes this whole thing something special and unique to millions across the world - most of who I swear I am best friends with... There is something that makes people want to be involved in this whole auto play online diary in a sense. There are actual "bloggers", people that make doing just this an actual living. Could you imagine? I mean, honestly...how fun would that be? ... so now, I begin. And hey, maybe I'll get lucky.. maybe even consider this whole thing a little serendipitous, and one day make a living for myself..become an actual "blogger"? Now there's a thought. 


In the meantime, lets have a little fun.