reading between the lines

i saw a sign that read "i'm the girl, you're the guy. if you don't text me first, we don't talk today" and unfortunately today...that is probably pretty true. sucks to be the guy eh?#sorryimnotsorry. i don't know if this is a recent phenomenon, or if women have always expected a little more than they would normally receive, or if they just want comfort knowing that he will eventually come around...in a world where texting is easier than calling and calling is easier than vid chatting, and writing is something only done to show sympathy, or provide a term of endearment to one who maybe is too old to appreciate anything otherwise, communication can be pretty overwhelming. if one thing is true, we all have been forced to get pretty good at reading in between the lines. we all have to re-read that last text and ask ourselves..."did she really just say that?" or, "did he mean what he just said?"...when really, he or she..didn't even say anything at all. we have removed, tone, voice inflection, breathing and sound altogether from our conversations, and are left to only assume how the other is interpreting our message...this in itself makes one get pretty damn good at reading in between the lines if you ask me.
i am a victim to the don't text, won't call syndrome. years ago i would have picked up, called and rang until someone, anyone, answered..where as today, i can send you a bbm, i can tell if you read it, and then i can consciously decide, well choose...if i am going to even try harder to continue the conversation that i wanted to have in the first place. usually, unfortunately enough by that time... i am usually too tired to even try...because honestly... chances are you saw my missed call, read my text and still chose not to respond... hence, again, reading in between the lines. communication is easier now than it has ever been before. well, in the literal sense. now a days, we are left to interpret someones non response, some ones slow delay, or someones ignorance... in the literal sense. 
people are able to find ways to communicate to others that they perhaps would never have had years or maybe decades ago. things like a blog make it easier to have an eye into ones personal life...for example, chances are when i "share" this post when i am done.. there are about 3 or so people i wish i'd never spoken to again, that read and know more about my life currently than i'd like them too...but..i have no control over that. communication in this form is a scary thing, but it is definitely something else. it is real, and it is un-censored. kind of the opposite of me, when i think about it...so now and then, i find myself at times thinking... hmm.. should i post this? hmmm, should i watch what i say? welp, fuck that.. and here is why (how is that for un-censored) 


we live in a world today where communication is not guarded, even though in some, if not most cases it should be. we are being watched by colleagues, professionals, and family just to name a few. there are a million and one ways to get in touch or speak to the person or persons you want to without even picking up the phone, or writing a letter. meanwhile, here, writing my thoughts in such a way that is stream of consciousness makes me feel a little closer and a little more in touch with the people that choose to take part in this little form of lonely chit chat, even though i may have no idea who really is peeking in at any given time...and for that, i thank the bloggers, the facebookers, the texters, and yes, even the letter writers. it is because of you that i am able to spit it all out, lay it all down, and get a little sleep at night... no matter how great the day, or how heavy the anxiety...because, after all...we all need to get better at reading in between the lines, especially today.

life before texting...