I have been in Roanoke just over 7 months and I am already feeling the effects of living the solo life until we are all situated with the big move up to Massachusetts. Sure, there are some perks like getting to buy my favorites at the grocery store or not having to worry about the silly little chores that living with another person include however, i can honestly say... i feel a little lost without my crew. i actually miss henry banging into my knee with his bone, gibson getting hair all over the couch and joe making fun of Chopped on the Food Network from the kitchen.
with all of the heartache that comes from the transition and getting things settled over the next few months it makes me so much more thankful for what i have and who i share my time with. it also makes me realize even further how difficult it must be for those that lose someone they spent every waking moment with day in and day out. sure, i've spent close to 5 years in a relationship however only 9 months of the time have we actually been able to see each other and experience the company of one another throughout the normal work week or fun filled weekend.
as i sit here anxious about this empty house, i can only think how hard it must be for others who suddenly lose the ones they love and have spent 20, 30 or 60 years of their life with day in and day out. it's a reminder that life is short and you just never know what you may come home too after a long day at work. it's a reminder that what you know as routine which therefore provides you with a sense of security could all one day be gone. it makes the little things a little bit more memorable and the big things much easier to miss.
i am excited for what is ahead, for what the summer may bring, then the fall and ultimately the "harsh winters" have in store for us up in Mass. but i'll tell ya what - being back with my boys, makes it already feel like home.
as i sit here anxious about this empty house, i can only think how hard it must be for others who suddenly lose the ones they love and have spent 20, 30 or 60 years of their life with day in and day out. it's a reminder that life is short and you just never know what you may come home too after a long day at work. it's a reminder that what you know as routine which therefore provides you with a sense of security could all one day be gone. it makes the little things a little bit more memorable and the big things much easier to miss.
i am excited for what is ahead, for what the summer may bring, then the fall and ultimately the "harsh winters" have in store for us up in Mass. but i'll tell ya what - being back with my boys, makes it already feel like home.
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